November Fever

Mid term's over and i didnt really do well for my exams..very much because i didn't study hard and took it for granted..too late for me to regret now but just to study hard for finals and do well in all the assignments..cant afford to even get C for my papers cause my CGPA is dropping each semester..WTF..i know i don't have the heart and initiative to study d..so basically i'm forcing myself to do so just to get a degree..

it's just beginning of the month and i've to make like 4 choices and decisions in 4 days..it's all work related and 1 of it relates to my holiday trip..i've been given all the huge projects and job to choose from..dilemma for a few days..cause i cant accept everything as some of it clashes..

UK trip most prolly will be cancelled..i'm also working on some shop which it's grand opening is on Dec or Jan..so i've to choose again between UK or working things out for the shop..

and so.........Baby P havta get his dissertation done during the Xmas holidays..and if i were to go there, we wont be able to travel to other places cause he might not have enough time to get it done..

of course i'm upset cause i wont be able to have a White Christmas that i've been longing for..and i've to think positively..

so in another way it's a good thing to not go to UK cause i've so many things to settle**very much lying to myself**

then i can save up for other trips**lying to myself again**

then the air tic is expensive**it's just another lie**

then....there's no other reason's for not going..cause i really want to go..sigh..

but i can't be selfish..i shall just go with the flow..or change my destination to travel for Xmas..